photo: Marissa Pina, Vivala

For years, I've watched my younger sister Rocio go from her original brunette hair to blonde to bright red back to brunette to even hot pink. All the while I was hoping I could one day build up the courage to do it myself, but I was always too scared. What if I didn't like how it turned out? What if it turned out to be something completely different from what it was supposed to be? But somewhere in the past couple of weeks, I finally let go of that fear and dove in headfirst into the world of hair coloring. Specifically, I dove in with New York–based celebrity colorist Carlina Ortega, who promised to make me over with the oil slick hair trend. (Go big or go home, right?)

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Real talk: I've never felt more like myself. I love my new locks and am glad I took this hair plunge. After all, it is just hair. I can always dye it back to my original color, or maybe I'll finally try that hot pink my sister sported last summer. Either way, I bid adieu to fear and now cannot wait to try other colors. New hair, e'ery day.